I can't stand it

I hate being fat, even after loosing 30+ lbs. I'm still fat.
My body disgusts me.
Every time I look in a mirror I can't help but to turn to the side and stare with a face at my gut, thighs, chubby arms, and ass.
I can't stand it anymore, I just want to be thin.
And hey, I don't even have to be thin. I'll settle for 110-115 lbs. like any normal-not-fat-teen girl.
I don't want to be shopping for size 7s and 9s I want to be pulling 3's and 5's off of the rack.
It doesn't matter how much I do or don't eat, how much I work-out. I've still got unsightly bags of ick on me.
I can't stand this anymore.